I haven't posted in almost a week, and haven't really been making enough effort on the diet/exercise front either...
STARTING WEIGHT: 237.9 lbs
ENDING WEIGHT: 237.5 lbs
WEIGHT LOSS: 0.4 lbs
Sorry for not having written anything for most of this week. I feel bad that I'm now going to write a negative post today, as I did still manage to scrape a loss, but in terms of focussing on my weight-loss, this week has been a complete failure. For several reasons.
I'm still not exercising. Apart from that run I took on Monday night, I've hardly left my room. Revision for exams would be a perfect excuse, except I wasn't even doing that. I seemed to regress this week back into the lazy, excuse-making slob I was for so many years before. I would be sat there, browsing the internet, telling myself I ought to run, and I ought to revise, I ought to do SOMETHING productive...but I didn't. I kept saying things like "agh, this day is almost over, no point now", or "tomorrow is the day to get back on track." The same old guff I spouted for years, as my waistline expanded, and my grades slowly dropped.
Not posting also meant I more or less forgot about the blog, and therefore the weight-loss. I even stopped weighing for a couple of days, in fear of what the scale would say. Luckily managed to score a small loss, but that is, once again, thanks to really restricting my calories on the last two days. That's not healthy, not sustainable, and not what this diet attempt is all about. Suffice to say, last week I lost my way.
Not posting also meant I more or less forgot about the blog, and therefore the weight-loss. I even stopped weighing for a couple of days, in fear of what the scale would say. Luckily managed to score a small loss, but that is, once again, thanks to really restricting my calories on the last two days. That's not healthy, not sustainable, and not what this diet attempt is all about. Suffice to say, last week I lost my way.
I feel more fired up for this week though. I have two weeks now before my exams, which sounds like a long time, but there is a full year of material to cover, so I've got my work cut out. I'm also feeling stressed, and angry, and frustrated, all emotions which previously drove me to exercise, so I hope they do the same for me again. Now I'm hitting the revision properly, I'll have a more structured day, and will also be more keen for a stress-relieving break from the books, so would expect to run more often this week too. Ideally, I want to get four runs in by Monday, and have gone over all my revision material at least once by Sunday night. If I can do that, and score a loss on the scales too, I'll feel like I'm back in control, rather than drowning in circumstance.
I'm fed up with making-do, and scraping by. I had a fantastic opportunity to drop out of an Obese BMI this past week, and I threw it away. By next Monday, things WILL be different.
WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE:
59.6 lbs
237.5 lbs
237.5 lbs
I feel like it is our nature to try and rationalize gains, or results that aren't up to par. I think you are doing alright all things considered. Just try and focus on why you want to lose weight and hopefully the motivation will come along with it.
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you on the shitty weightloss week front. I could give a thousand and one excuses on why it's been so difficult to get on and stay on track- but they are just excuses.
ReplyDeleteThat being said- I refuse to let this become a spiral back (up) the scale. I will stay at the very least honest with myself, and dilligent about what I'm NOT doing that I should be. And you should to.
Here's to us- lighter next week. Cheers!
It's really hard when circumstances come in and interrupt your resolve, it sounds like you've got some goals for the week though which is a great tactic. Hope it works out for you :-)
ReplyDelete