It has now been weeks, even months, since I last went for a run. Its a shame, really - think of the weight I COULD have lost! But never mind - sometimes I even think its a good thing that my weight-loss slowed, as it makes me less nervous about rebounds or baggy skin when the loss is nice and gradual! The good news is I seem to be improving healthwise now, so hope to get a run in some time next week.
I have been busy in other ways though. When I knew I wasn't going to be running, I decided to get out and about, to make sure I was at least still active, and not just sitting in my room in front of the computer. I dug out my guidebook to London, and made a list of all the free attractions I was interested in. Went off to a museum this week, and have another couple lined up for next week.
I went out and met up with some friends on Wednesday night too. That might sound like quite a normal thing to do, but it was quite a big deal for me. I've said before that I deactivated my Facebook when I was at my heaviest (back in February), lost contact with most of my friends, and wouldn't attend any social gatherings. I was too embarrassed by how I looked, too self-conscious, and didn't really know who I was at that point.
Things have definitely changed on that front now. I actually enjoy being around other people again...and dare I say, they seem to enjoy being around me more than before? Another blogger, Miss April (who I recommend you all go and read), previously reported a similar phenomenon - people seem to 'perceive you as you perceive yourself'. Back when I was self-conscious and wary and withdrawn, people would be the same with me. But now that I have more confidence, and am more willing to connect with other people, suddenly everyone seems that little bit more friendly! And people actually want to spend time with you - my calendar is filling up!
I'm really feeling like a new man these days. Maybe THAT'S part of the problem - I'm so pleased with how far I've come, I don't feel any pressure to continue. I have to keep reminding myself that I haven't finished yet - if I think things are good now, wait until this whole program is over!