Week 35 - RESULTS (And Finally, A Run!)

Finally, a weigh-in that I'm blogging on time!

STARTING WEIGHT:   225.4 lbs

ENDING WEIGHT:  225.2 lbs



WEIGHT LOSS:    0.2 lbs

Well, on the positive front, I have recorded another loss. After gaining weight a few months ago, I wondered if that was it for my regular losses, and half-expected to enter a phase of "two steps forward, one step back". That at least never happened, but I am definitely in a "baby steps" phase, if nothing else.

This could well be down to the fact that I have already lost a lot of weight, but I could only 100% support that theory if I had done everything else perfectly. If I had eating carefully, got some exercise in, and still only seen a little loss, then fair play. I could accept a small loss after that, as I would know that was just my new natural rate of weight loss.

But I haven't been perfect. Far from it. I checked, and as of this morning my last run was in July - can you believe it? Here is me trying to lose weight, and I'm not even exercising anymore (outside of my normal daily walking etc). The eating front is a bit better, but I'm struggling with a weekend overload thing at the moment...

Basically, because I have next to no money any more, I'm doing all my shopping (at the weekend) at those super-cheap food stores. Thing is, they charge less because they sell things in bulk, so I end up buying quite a lot of stuff at once to keep the costs down. But then, when it comes to having dinner on the Saturday and Sunday, I feel a bit spoilt for choice, and end up having either "a little of everything", or having too much of one thing, because I've "already opened the packet" and there's loads in there. That has to stop. I keep undoing the progress I've made during the week. I think the weekly progress is a bit of an issue too - by Friday, when I see a loss of a couple of pounds, I get all self-congratulatory, and decide to 'treat myself' that night, or over the weekend, and end up gaining some weight, so I only record a loss of 0.2 lbs or whatever.

I'm really going to try and avoid that this weekend. I actually bought some food for dinner tonight, and instead of cooking the whole lot, only used half and put the rest in the freezer - a little thing sure, but real progress for me! I also need to start exercising again this week - after so long away it will take me some time to get back up to my old distance/time, but I have to start somewhere!

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UPDATE: OK, so after writing this post, I decided to save it as a draft, rather than post right away. Why? Well, because I felt a run brewing. I've been telling myself I ought to run for weeks now, but I've always been too tired, or too ill (I've had the same cough for about 2 months now, you'd think as a medical student I'd have seen a doctor by now!). There has always been an excuse.

Well, this morning I told myself I should run tonight, and I left it at that. I didn't try to convince myself, as that's when all the counter-arguments start coming. I just said "I should run", and left it there. And as I was writing the above...I don't know! I checked the clock, saw it was still quite early. I ought to have done some work, but knew I was too brain-drained for it. All I was going to do otherwise was watch some TV and then read in bed...so why not?

So I did! I finally went for another run! Managed my old distance too, and was only 3 minutes slower than the last time I ran! Very happy with it!


I shouldn't be so pleased with myself, as its taken me long enough, but I really feel good about today in general. Not just the eating (and now exercising). Last night in bed I was tossing and turning, worrying about how much work I still have to do at Uni before Christmas, worrying about money (since I have none), worrying about my weight loss (as historically, winter is when I pile on the pounds). But I told myself to spend less time worrying, and more time doing. Less time PLANNING to be a better dieter/exerciser/worker, and more time BEING those things. I know its only worked for one day so far, but it feels fantastic...long may it continue!

WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 

71.9 lbs

225.2 lbs 

 225.2 lbs