Thursday, October 20, 2011

Weeks 33 and 34 - RESULTS

It's terrifying me, how quickly time is passing. How far into my third academic year I already am. AND, how long it has been since I last posted! Here are the results from the last TWO weeks!

STARTING WEIGHT:   226.0 lbs

WEEK 33 WEIGHT:  225.8 lbs

WEIGHT LOSS:   0.2 lbs

WEEK 34 WEIGHT:  225.4 lbs

WEIGHT LOSS:   0.4 lbs

Now then. Why am I not posting?

Well, I think there are a lot of reasons. One is that I am simply far busier now than I was when I started the blog. My days now just blur into one, as I'm up at the crack of dawn, on my feet all day, and don't do much more than crash straight into bed when I get home. I've hardly done any of my recommended reading for the term, never mind blogging about my weight loss! Finally I can start to empathise with those of my reader's who have proper full-time jobs (and I'm including raising kids or running a home in that!). How you've managed it I will never know!
Another reason is the fact that, after my last post, I felt really determined to crack on with the weight loss, but it was a different kind of determination than before. In the past, my enthusiasm was all high and excited, and I needed to come on here all bubbly and talk about it, and get support from others to keep going. Now, the drive feels different - its grimmer, more silent, more a case of 'head down, and get on with it', which doesn't really lend itself well to blogging. I mean, what would I say? Every day is much the same, with much the same structure, and I just do my best, plod on, and get small but regular results. I'd be a bit bored to blog about that day after day, so I can only imagine you'd be bored to read it!

I don't know, maybe I've just run out of things to say? The whole weight-loss mentality is so much a part of me now, that I almost don't have to think about it. It's just who I am. I began the blog to keep me on track, to keep me motivated, to keep weight-loss at the front of my mind. I don't need it to serve that purpose anymore, so perhaps I need to think about taking the blog in a different direction...we shall see.

Actually, part of me thinks that once I FINALLY reach my former lowest weight of 222.3 lbs, I might find myself enthused again. There is still a voice in the back of my mind telling me that the weight I'm losing right now isn't progress, so much as retreading old ground, making up for past mistakes. It really puts a dampener on a loss, knowing that you already passed this weight MONTHS ago, and then let it go. That makes me less eager to sing my own praises on this blog each week, but once I feel I'm making REAL progress, I might be back again. We shall see. It's only a few pounds more to drop, but the rate is so slow at the moment, it would take me weeks to get there! Determined to try and go for a run this weekend, just to get back into exercising as well as the dieting (and deep chesty cough be damned, I'm fed up of excuses, even perfectly good ones!).

So...well, I don't know when I'll post again! I'd like to think it would be this weekend, if I manage to go for a run. Or maybe on Monday, for the weigh-in. But it seems like, just for the moment, I am not a reliable blogger. That doesn't mean I've given up! It just means...well, I guess it means things are different now. Things have changed. And perhaps its time this blog did too...any ideas?

71.7 lbs


  1. I hear you = as I am in the same boat. I am working on weight that I had already lost then lost sight of my real goals and aspirations. BUT it is still a journey, an everyday journey, and your blogging about mundain things and small increments of loss helps keep me on the straight and narrow too. YOu are not alone - I think it is a road well tread - hopefully I won't be treading it again once I get back to my main goal!

  2. Still losing. That's great. Slow and steady and you'll get to the goal you want. :)