Since...gosh, technically since about the end of April, but really since mid-May, weight loss has not been my top priority. First I had revision for my exams. Then the exams themselves. Then I went on holiday. Then I went away again for my brother's stag. There seems to have always been something more important for me to focus on, or something that meant I was away from home, and out of my 'safe zone'.
All in all, several months have shot by, and I haven't been as dedicated to my weight-loss as I should have been. Of course, there were bursts of activity, and a few really good losses in that time period. But generally speaking, I was 'making do', relying on a calorie deficit to shift some weight, plus the occasional run.
I don't want to sound like I'm complaining though, as I have continued to see losses. This post isn't to record disappointment at all, rather my excitement that now, with everything finished, I have a chance to really get back into my weight-loss mindset.
But its proving really difficult! I've been eating a lot more in the last few weeks, and foods I was tending to avoid while on my diet. That means I'm now feeling old cravings for gorge-sessions I haven't felt in a while, and my old dieting menu is looking very scant and unappetising. I also haven't been for a run in ages, and now I have a bit of a chesty cough, which I used as an excuse this morning not to go out and get it done.
I almost feel like I'm right back at the beginning of this program (mentally, not physically!) - constantly psyching myself up, getting ready for the 'big start' tomorrow, but forever putting it off. Never actually making the plunge back into the dieting mindset.
I guess that's not entirely a bad thing - actually, I almost feel like this is a fresh start, like I'm beginning all over again...but this time about 70lbs lighter than previously!
I think I'm going to ease myself into it for a little longer - start cutting back calories and doing my stretches up until Monday's weigh-in - and then take Monday as the start of the 'new' phase of my program. I'm really excited about it: three whole weeks before my brother's wedding, with nothing to think about except dieting and exercise. Bliss!
As long as I actually DO it...