Apologies for not getting this up yesterday, ended up having to pull an all-nighter to finish a report, and only a week before exams too!
STARTING WEIGHT: 220.5 lbs
ENDING WEIGHT: 220.2 lbs
WEIGHT LOSS: 0.3 lbs
Even though I only ran once last week, I think my diet is settling down after the carb-loading of the previous month, so the loss is slightly more than the previous week. I didn't actually weigh during the week, only on the Monday, so I have no idea of whether this represented a steady loss, or a zigzag pattern of loss and gain. Still, its heading in the right direction, and seems quite stable at the moment, which is good. As I've said before, big 'power weeks' are well and good, when I get loads of exercise done and lose several pounds, but the inevitable rebound that follows just means they're not really worth it.
My first exam is next week. I feel so unprepared, and there never seem to be enough hours in the day for revision. I guess I can only do the best I can giving the short time I have to prepare, but my expectations are pretty low. There has been so much going on this year, on top of the Uni work, and my weight-loss attempt, and my general laziness, that I actually EXPECT to do poorly. Its really depressing actually, and I envy those who have been really inspired by the course, and have been doing their extra reading all through the year, in the evenings and on weekends. I just haven't been as motivated as they seem to, and I don't know if that means I'm lazy and need to work harder, or if the course just isn't for me and that's why I struggle to get engaged. Probably a bit of both. Sigh.
Anyway, sorry to divert from strictly weight-loss topics for a while there, but I don't really have anyone to talk to about all this, and because I've always got by in the past, I think most people get fed up with me when I try to explain how worried I am - they think I'm being facetious, making a big show of being nervous when actually I've been prepared for months. That is really not the case, and when friends tell me "you'll be fine, you always are," I know they're being nice and I thank them for it, but that mindset is what turned me into an unmotivated and lazy achiever - why work when I can just cram at the end, and still do pretty well? That can get you only so far, and I wouldn't want this year to be that limit.
Anyway, I'm planning on getting a run in tonight (wanted to go last night, but work got in the way), and we'll see on Monday next week if I can continue this slow and steady pace.
2012 Weight Loss:
4.7 lbs (76.9 total loss)